Flirtations

In the old days, it started with middle school. There were known then as the 'bra-stuffers'. They hooked up with older guys and vandalized school property. In high school, you could find them everywhere. They were the cheerleaders, the freshmen who had 'little-man' syndrome, and the girls who ended up pregnant senior year and dropping out to become full-time, perpetually struggling, single moms. Needless to say, I was never a part of the flirtatious girl group. In fact, I pretty much stayed away from guys in general. They intimidated the crap out of me.
My roommate is the epitome of the flirtatious girl, only without the whole pregnancy, teen mom thing going on. She's the Mormon version, I guess. I knew that if I ever wanted any semblance of a social life when it came to members of the opposite sex, I had to assert myself just as much as she does. The only problem is, is that I'm not that girl at all. I am the quiet type who is pretty much invisible. I decided once that I didn't want to be invisible anymore, but no one else got the hint that I changed my mind. Funny.
So I observed her. She flirted shamelessly with guys on end, be they premis, RMs, or just plain, weird guys. She left a train of broken hearts behind her. I tried to flirt how she flirted, making the guy feel that he had your complete attention and he was the only interesting guy there. It never worked. As I said, no one got told that I don't want to be invisible anymore. But, I kept at it, only to discover it led me to a place I never wanted to go.