Something About Nothing

Mom made the comment the other day that I hadn't been keeping up my blog. I guess that's because once you graduate, life becomes pretty boring. Seriously. My phone conversations with my mother are significantly shorter and more ridiculous than before because I simply have nothing to tell her. So what am I supposed to write about? However, since I should be cleaning my apartment and/or doing other unpleasant things such as arrange an appointment with mediation for my ridiculous old landlord, I thought I'd write a few something somethings. In this past year, I have learned a lot about myself and a lot about life. For example, I found out that I absolutely hate conflict. Like, I will do anything and everything I possibly can do avoid it. I've also learned that Heavenly Father has a big sense of humor. If life is going fairly well and normally, he's going to throw a curve ball in there to shake things up a bit. When I started my scholastic journey, I did not expect this is where I would end up. In major, relationship, job, and overall life. I had a plan. And goshdarnit, I was going to stick to that plan. Buuuut, as I started going with this plan, Heavenly Father said, "Well, I'm not sure about this. Maybe you should change this part of your plan." So, I said ok! That'll put me a little behind, but I'll do it if I'm supposed to do it. So, I corrected my course a little bit and changed my major, but for the most part, I kept my plan in tact. As I continued going, Heavenly Father said, "Wait, wait wait. Something is terribly wrong here. This cannot happen. You were not meant for this plan. You need to let it go. I have something better in mind, but you will have to be patient." When I wasn't as willing to let this part of the plan go, Heavenly Father gave a gentle shove back onto the path that he had planned for me. It has been an extremely rough journey. I am grateful that I have a Heavenly Father who watches out for me and attempts to guide me in the best direction. He has to be a little bit more persistent with me because I tend to be really stubborn. I'm still in the middle of being patient. I have no idea where to live or what job to get, if I should go on a mission, or if I should maybe go to a trade tech. I'm a little bit frightened for what this next chapter will bring, but I do know that my Heavenly Father has my back and where He's guiding me will lead me to the greatest happiness I will ever know, as long as I am faithful and trusting. "The past should be left in the past, otherwise it can destroy your future. Live life for what tomorrow has to offer, not for what yesterday has taken away."