A girl recognized me from my ballet class when I walked into work the other day. It was strange because I always feel like I am an invisible person as I don't talk at all in any of my classes. It's not a self-esteem issue. It's a 'I don't want to subject my ornery morning self on innocent, unsuspecting people' thing.
It may also be a self-esteem thing.
Or habitual since I have spent the last 20 years of my life not being a morning person. It would take me a good solid hour at drill team practices for me to be able to form a coherent sentence and not scowl at any girl who asked me a question. I think a lot of people were scared of me in high school. Well, the ones that noticed me at all anyway.
It really doesn't bother me anymore, being invisible. I know that I'm not as outgoing or social as other people and that's fine. I'm shy and quiet. Especially around people I don't know. But, I am who I am. Love me or hate me for it. If college has taught me one thing, it's learning to accept myself for who I am and don't try to change that to please other people.
13 years ago
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